I went to my weekly therapy yesterday and we did a brainspotting session about living in fear. This is something that I have done my entire life, and I really didn’t see it as clearly until yesterday. We dug deeper into what originally caused these fears, who helped to plant them and how they influenced… Continue reading Living in Fear
Leaving my lifelong religion has been a long, constant healing journey. I have felt a freedom since leaving that I never have before in my life, but I have also felt isolated and lonely at times. My built in LDS community which I used to rely on for all of my social interactions is no… Continue reading Where do I fit into the world now?
Last night I realized that I stopped attending the LDS church almost four years ago! It's been exactly one year since I had my name removed. It took me a little while to figure out whether or not I should because it took a lot of soul-searching to come to a place where I felt… Continue reading My process of leaving Mormonism and things that have helped along the way
Like I have mentioned in previous posts, I am currently going to regular therapy. When I first started, I mostly thought I was going to rid myself of the pain that I was carrying around due to leaving the LDS church. It was a very painful process and I didn't know how to move forward… Continue reading How obedience to the Mormon church affected me (possible triggers)
My entire life as a woman in the LDS church revolved around preparing to become a wife and mother one day. The sooner the better in their eyes. Every Young Womens lesson somehow incorporated this idea that I was meant to bring God's children into the world so that I could further carry out "the… Continue reading Embracing motherhood and homemaking without LDS expectations
When you are LDS you're one of the fold. Membership in the church means that you do what the leaders say so that you can fit in with the group and look the part. It shows your spirituality if you dress properly. Self expression isn't outright "bad" but it is highly important to maintain a… Continue reading Lack of individuality as an LDS member
Understanding spiritual experiences as an Exmormon. What spirituality means to me after leaving Mormonism.